Shadows Seen

Seething inside
Was a simmering pain.
Pouring outside.
was an innocent smile.
Stemming both sides
Was a unknown shadow.
Shrouded in Mystery.
Not revealing itself.
Waiting for me
To unmask it.
Fear gripped me.
Tears held me.
Postponing the inevitable.
I looked on
And saw the woeful imagery.
Rolled into one
A story to tell.
Of someone who never knew.
what was right and wrong.
Hiding underneath a joyful mask
Was a person numb inside.
Never mattered what it was.
Nothing to stop the end.
Helplessly I gaze,
At the cold reality of the world.
We all go away forever.
But never knew
Hurt this bad.
Would make me numb everywhere.
I bid adieu to what was now.
To hang onto what was then.
Memories remain forever,
But people fade into oblivion.
Eternity is a joke now.
When I know,
Everything is dispensable.
The shadow that stalks me,
Clear as day.
Engulfs me now.
I slowly succumb to the need,
To let go of what is gone.
I won't call it mourning.
I call it remembrance,
of who it was and what remains.
That keeps them alive,
Amidst my wayward life.