Simply put...

Never in a million years
Ever imagined being here.
A stranger in a known world.
The only catch is familiarity.
People think they know you.
Believe what you say.
See what you do.
Judging you for what you are.
Everything scrutinized,
Always leading to the same thing.
Simply put an ordinary person
With flawed perception and action.
Thats what you want them to see.
Drawn conclusions and notions.
Based on actions you do,
Brash,Talkative, Boastful,Arrogant.
Sarcastic,Sycophant,Smartass.
The whole thing a ruse,
A game of unwanted flashiness.
To cloud what they know.
The cover over reality,
Once lifted reveals
Someone unsettled, unwanted.
Unwarranted, misunderstood.
Putting walls of guise,
Filtering someone who
Resembles the stereotype in ways.
Alienated from everyone they stand,
Yearning for just one to find.
Who they are supposed to be?
Till then the charade goes on.
Lasting till the end.
Simply put no one knows.
Who someone really is.

Shadows Seen

Seething inside
Was a simmering pain.
Pouring outside.
was an innocent smile.
Stemming both sides
Was a unknown shadow.
Shrouded in Mystery.
Not revealing itself.
Waiting for me
To unmask it.
Fear gripped me.
Tears held me.
Postponing the inevitable.
I looked on
And saw the woeful imagery.
Rolled into one
A story to tell.
Of someone who never knew.
what was right and wrong.
Hiding underneath a joyful mask
Was a person numb inside.
Never mattered what it was.
Nothing to stop the end.
Helplessly I gaze,
At the cold reality of the world.
We all go away forever.
But never knew
Hurt this bad.
Would make me numb everywhere.
I bid adieu to what was now.
To hang onto what was then.
Memories remain forever,
But people fade into oblivion.
Eternity is a joke now.
When I know,
Everything is dispensable.
The shadow that stalks me,
Clear as day.
Engulfs me now.
I slowly succumb to the need,
To let go of what is gone.
I won't call it mourning.
I call it remembrance,
of who it was and what remains.
That keeps them alive,
Amidst my wayward life.